Day 57: What is your definition of happiness
Unlike the feeling of sadness, it’s very hard to remember you were happy. That’s what I was told. And that’s what I understand. The feeling of pain touches you deeper than happiness. At least that’s how it is for me.
In the darkest times, I always wonder… What is being happy?
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens, brown paper packages tied up with ribbons…
For some reason, the Sound of Music resonates in my head. A brief moment. That’s what I think happiness is. It can be a combination of moments that create a day, perhaps weeks, and maybe months, and even years. And you’re one of the lucky few.
For me, happiness is something that lights a smile, one that isn’t forced. One that just happens.
Maybe it’s easier to grasp with situations. A child opening presents on Christmas day. Walking across the stage during graduation. Eating your favorite home-cooked meal. Hugging your parents after not seeing them in a while. A baby playing peek-a-boo, being chased around the house, being tickled.
Happiness, it’s much harder to describe than you think.
Day 52: What is the most inspirational thing you’ve ever heard
Life goes on. Ask yourself, will it matter five, ten, twenty years from now?
Day 52: If you didn’t have an age, how old would you think you were
So uhm. They had a typo and had two day 52s… So there’s my 366th one? I lied. I’ll just do them both…
I actually don’t know how old I would seem. There are times when I think I’m wicked mature. (Ha-ha) But there are also times when I can enjoy things as if I were a little kid. Age is just a number, it doesn’t determine how you act, or what not. It’s something fabricated. Or I’m just spouting out nonsense.
Day 53: Your day, in great detail
If I recall properly… this was probably… Tuesday. Hm. In great detail? I did nothing… Aha.
Day 54: Your definition of love
Love can be whatever you make of it. To me, it’s when just the thought of them might bring a smile to your face. It’s when you see an old couple together. When you are willing to be able to see someone at their worst time and still want to be with them…
Day 55: A passage from a book that has touched you
I don’t have the book with me at the moment though… But I think that Tuesdays with Morrie touched me a great deal. So I pick the whole book as my passage!
Day 56: Something you did as a child that other people remember you for
I don’t remember something I did as a child that other people remember me for… I do remember funny moments? Like one time, I had to break into my own house to open the door for my brother and his friends… Actually I had to break into my house countless times…
Not really anything else though.
Day 49: Are you a lover or a fighter
What does this even mean…
I guess I would probably be a fighter. Because I’ve been in those cases when everything just falls apart and I struggle to do my best to fix it. I fight to stay where I am. I fight to get everything right again. Even if I no longer have the reasons of why I should stay, I try to make something. Anything…
Day 50: Why you are doing this challenge
I stopped being able to write a random thing every day… It’s easier with topics.
Day 51: Describe your future wedding
I don’t know… aha. Maybe just a simple one.
Day 48: Your life story in three words
Life goes on.
Day 44: When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just do what you know is right
When you have an inelastic demand… LOL. But I feel as though when you instinctively do something, you’ll do something you know is right. But sometimes, actually most times, you might calculate. It’s time to stop calculating when something’s urgent. When something needs your attention right there and then. When you have to save someone. Go for it.
Day 45: When was the last time you tried something new
Trying something new? I think it was when I joined senior dance and had to record myself dancing… And I started talking to people I’ve always wanted to talk to in person! Going forth!
Day 46: What makes you smile
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens, brown paper packages tied up with ribbons~ But I think when someone asks me how I’m doing, or when they remember me when thinking of plans and everything. I like it when someone thinks of me. Or when I see someone do something really nice like giving their chair up to the elderly or something. I just smile. I also smile randomly when I think of good memories that I miss…
Day 47: Is the truth always good to hear, why or why not
Although it hurts to hear the truth, might as well hear it from the person themselves than someone else. Better to hear it sooner than later. Even though you might stop talking to them, it’s better than living a lie. That’s what I think. Even though it hurts, bear it and get stronger from that. Become someone who can take it. The truth hurts. Deal with it.
But even though I say that… I don’t think I’d be able to handle the truth. It’s bad really… I’m a terrible hypocrite.
Day 40: What are features you get complimented on a lot
I don’t think I really get complimented a lot… because when I do, I hear it in disbelief. I’m not sure. The only thing that I remember getting complimented on was how tall I am sort of, and my teeth…
Day 41: Write a letter to yourself stating all the things you love about yourself
The only thing I briefly like about you is that you can eat a lot without gaining so much weight. But that might fail you in the future. Besides that… I don’t think I really like much about you. Well I guess I also like how you’d try so much for people and you often think of everyone but yourself a lot.
Day 42: Your best friend just died, what is your reaction
I would be in shock. What would have happened that they died so young? What were the into, what accident befell them? I would rush over to where they were with tears running down my cheeks. “Don’t leave me. Never.” I wouldn’t stare aimlessly into space wondering what happened. Why her? Not me.
Day 43: Is it possible to lie without saying a word
You can lie by just avoiding the topic. You can lie just by smiling when you’re really sad inside. You can lie by putting on a straight face when everything in the world goes wrong. When your face says you’re okay when you aren’t… you’re lying. You don’t need words to lie. It just happens. And when it does, sometimes the lie you say with your face and actions is more than what you can do with words.
Day 39: Why you think you’ve learned more from the good or the bad
…What? What is this question? Open to interpretation? Okay. I think I generally learn more from the bad, but I tend not to keep it in my head when I get into a daze. I think I learn more from the bad because it happens to stay in my head a lot longer. Just like how humans naturally run, sadness usually stays while happiness comes and goes in a fleeting moment.
The bad just crushes me so much, I end up having to learn from it or else… Yeah. I don’t know.
Day 38: Thoughts on your generation
I think that my generation is very hypocritical. Even myself. It’s just. Everything that comes out our mouths seem to be opposing viewpoints and it’s just crazy. Like we say that everything is beautiful and just the personality matters, but even though people say that, those people can sometimes just flip their views completely. I don’t know… It’s weird. But that’s what I think. Sometimes, we have certain beliefs that in an instant just disappears. I had something in mind to actually talk about, but then… yeah.
We also focus too much on materialistic things now. We’re so depended on technology. I can’t think of someone who can force themselves to naturally not use technology without actually preventing their mind from not thinking about it for a while. iPods. iPads. Droids. Video games. PCs. So much is just dependent on technology. Emails. I wish that people would take the time to actually send hand written letters. You know? I love hand written letters. Lengthy ones. Or invite people without using a facebook event? Yeah? Or connect by calling via phone and not instant message or write on walls. It’s convenient and all, but when someone takes that extra effort. I just know how much I mean to them. And I like that.
I love my generation and all, but we have our flaws. So don’t think you’re all that just because you’re 90s. It irks me sometimes.
Day 37: Who are you
Holy. This is a very vague question…
I am Jonathan. I am 17 years old. I am a Taurus. I think of myself as a biker, a baker, a bboy (sometimes), a student, a son, a brother, a grandson, myself. I am fat on the inside, but I found out that I’m not as much of a stick as I thought. I am a hopeless romantic, although I think of myself as more so just hopeless.
I am an awkward turtle.
I’m not sure what else to answer… so.
Day 36: What you think about your friends
I love my friends. Although, sometimes I wish some of my friends would show that they cared as much as I did for them, I guess it’s just varies from person to person.
Day 35: Words you live by, why do you like them
I know it’s pretty cliche, but I want to live by these words. I want to seize the day and make it my own. But lately, I haven’t been able to do such things. I’ve been acting lazy with my head in the clouds, when I should really be out there and doing things that I want to do. I like these words because it relates a lot to the things I want to do out there.
Day 34: Your horoscope for today and whether you think it’s accurate
You aren’t interested in getting involved with a group of people today, especially if you have things to do on your own. Although you can happily become lost in nearly any activity you start now, it may not be so easy to completely isolate yourself from those close to you. Spending too much energy resisting the demands of friends and family can be a self-defeating proposition. Be creative with your schedule so you can claim your personal time and connect socially, too.
(This was the horoscope for the 5th to make up.)
I don’t really find it particularly accurate because I did in fact want to get involved with a group of people, but on the other hand, I didn’t want to go with another group. And I suppose the things I had to do on my own would relate to my homework. But I don’t want to get lost in it. And I can’t completely isolate myself because today’s the Superbowl.
I don’t know… this is really vague.
Day 33: Someone who really hurt you
Stop always bringing yourself these ideas that things will happen because they won’t. And because you always get depressed afterwards, that just doesn’t help. It doesn’t. So stop.
And yeah. That’s it really.
Day 32: Whether you’d rather marry someone who’s rich but ugly, or poor but attractive
So um. I’ll just assume you mean ugly personality wise. Because honestly, if they’re rich they can just get plastic surgery to look pretty.
But if they were ugly on the inside… it’d be hard to change that. I would want to be with someone poor but attractive on the inside. I don’t think I’d be able to take the horrendous actions that might happen with someone who’s rich, but if they’re poor, we can always work together to fix that and make things happen. Being poor is all dependent on viewpoint. Something poor to someone, could be the whole world and more to someone else.
Day 31: A bit about your social life outside of Tumblr
Simply put… I don’t have one. Aha. Actually for the most part, I generally go home and knock out until I have to do homework… I spend most of my time on A.S.I.A. related stuff. And besides that, unless I ask to hang out, I don’t get out much, which is pretty sad.
My social life is barely one. Pretty depressing. But I’ll deal with it. And it’s okay I guess. I don’t mind it as much now because I’m enjoying my own presence.
But sometimes… it gets lonely.