I can’t make someone love me. I know I can’t. But I just want that feeling so much. That feeling most everyone has felt. 

Is it why I feel so left out?

I have completed Grey’s Anatomy. Now I am dead.

♥

SERIOUSLY OWEN CUNT. ACCEPT THAT CRISTINA DOESN’T WANT A BABY. HOLY SHIT. STOP BRINGING IT BACK TO THE ABORTION. YOU’RE ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT HOW CRISTINA IGNORES THE FACT THAT YOUR NEEDS INVOLVES BABIES BUT YOU IGNORE CRISTINA’S NEED FOR NOT HAVING BABIES. 

HOLY SHIT. GET DIVORCED ALREADY. 

CALLIE TORRES. IN TRAUMA. CAR ACCIDENT. SINGING. FEELS.

Ranked matches with incompetent ADCs suck so much >:[ LIKE SERIOUSLY. YOU SAY YOU’RE GOOD. Supporting them sucks cause you get all the blame… Fuck.

The longer I wait, the deep I seem to fall. Falling into this dark abyss known only to those who hide. Hiding from everything and trying to keep their minds sane. Minimally adaptive they say. A defender. So what am I defending myself from?

What am I scared for? The longer I wait, the darker everything around me turns.

I wonder how long I can go without feeling anything for anyone… Hm. We’ll see.

I guess. I’m pretty disappointed with college level maturity. I mean, I always thought it was going to be this amazing super magical transition where people understand they’re not children anymore and they act appropriately. But then again, I guess I’m not exactly too mature myself, so I guess I don’t know. But to be posting pictures inappropriately or making inappropriate jokes and just acting without any thinking involved. I’m just disappointed. It’s really depressing. I hope that when I come back in the Spring, people start getting hit by that maturity because I see all of you guys acting like douches and immature idiots. 

It’s pretty annoying.

You don’t have to do this.
Come on. What are you, scared?
Yes.
Me, too. So let’s just…

Leap. Okay?

I don’t know how long I can last like this.
Just hoping my fairy tales can come true.
Just hoping I will fall into a relationship.
Just hoping that one day…
I’ll be able to fall in love. 

What is it like to feel desirable?

This is just so stressful. I was already stressed from having so much work to do. But to top it off, I’m forced in here. Stay strong Boston.

Heavy weights strewn across,
My body torn down,
My eyes unable to close
because of these heavy weights.
I don’t know the cause or the reason
Nor do I understand if it’s physical
Or just a mental fatigue.
But all I know is that…

I’m tired. I’m tired of everything. I’m tired of work. I’m tired of play. I’m just simply,
Tired.

So when can I get rid of these heavy weights on my eyes? When can I get rid of this tired I feel. So take it away. And take it away from me.

I no longer want to feel this tired I feel.